Leaving everything behind.

So, in September my parents informed me that we will be moving to a place about an hour and a half from home this summer. I totally freaked out and yelled and cried a lot. I begged and begged for them to let me live with my grandparents, but there is no way that's going to happen. The hard part was telling these eight girls, known as my best friends, what is going to happen.
This year is going by why too fast and we're beginning to realize that these are some of our last memories to be created together. Before our grade's last football game, I remember crying with Christina because it was "our last football game to cheer together with our group of girls ever." Then came D-Now. Our "friends" were fighting a lot a few of the weeks before. Our sponsor saw that and we mended relationships that were damaged. Plus, ONE OF OUR FRIENDS GOT SAVED!!!!! Although the things that went down at D-Now were great, the one person that seems to always create "drama" was up to it again. Unfortunatly, we've lost a close friend because we all decided it wasn't worth all the stuff we were being put through. Don't get me wrong, we don't go around with our noses in the air and with an "I'm better than you" attitude, we simply don't share everything with that person as we used to.
Soon after D-Now came vocal All-Region and All-State. My closest friend, Betsy, and I were fortunate enough to make both honor choirs. I've never performed in a show without her. Even when only one of us were in the school talent show, the other was sitting on the first row cheering the one performing on. We knew we wanted to do a duet for our last show, and we wanted it to mean something to us. We found the perfect song. We'll be doing "For Good" off of Wicked. It never fails, I cry every single time I practice. My solo lines are "It well may be that we will never meet again in this lifetime, so let me say before I go, so much of me is made from what I've learned from you. You'll be with me, like a handprint on my heart. Now whatever way our stories end, know that you've rewritten mine by being my friend."
I'm so afraid that after a while my friends and I will lose "touch". I honestly couldn't stand that thought. I've been through so much with these girls and seen them grow into beautiful young ladies. It's unfair that my parents are making me leave everything I know and love behind. I probably sound really sappy and corny, but it's the truth. I know that I'll see everyone often. There's a reason for everything and I have to trust God and know that he's in control. I've prayed so many prays for him to just let me stay, but if it's his will that I move, that's what needs to happen.
Our house sold tonight, and this is becoming so real. Soon, I'll be packing up and moving on. I just want Betsy, Morgan, Emily, Tori, Katie, Christina, Shelbi, and Taylor know that each one of you have touched my life in so many amazing ways. No matter how far apart we are, I'll still be there for you all and will do anything for each of you. I love you Girls!!!


"I'll stop searching for the answers. I'll stop praying for an escape, and I'll trust you god and believe that you will have your way."




Listen to "Have Your Way" by Britt Nicole